Sitting at work, putting words from one page onto another, listening to music on my headset... I wonder if I am an adequate leader for my household. Am I strong enough to stand against the darkness of my own heart? When I am tired will I have the endurance to continue on, giving my best to my wife, my son, my work, my friends? Can I see far enough and clear enough to discern what pitfalls we might fall into and avoid them? When we fall into them will I have the grace and wisdom to see us out again? Will I have the grace to see through the darkness of others and love them through pain and disappointments? The future is hidden from me and look at what I can see. Can I provide for them? Can I overcome myself for them? Will the winds of time and circumstance be kind to us?
Yes. In Christ all things are possible. He has been faithful to me, to my family, to all his people from the beginning of time. And so it is in the Christ that I will entrust them all, even myself.
Emotional quandary solved.
Back to work.
